The Cynic Becomes A Believer?

I am not quite sure how it is that one person can believe in something with all of their heart, and then one sudden event can transform that which was not able to bend before.  I have been a cynic since...well, for as long as I can remember.  I was raised by a single mother who sternly believed that every man only wanted one thing from women, to  marry-if ever-for money and money alone, to get sex over with in the beginning of a relationship because if it is bad-you'll leave him anyway, friends are not to be trusted and often just get in the way, and I could go on forever.  Those are just some of the basic rules that I was bombarded with on a daily basis since I was about six or seven years old.  Moving forward with this knowledge, one could understand how this played a vital role in the way that I looked at men, relationships, sex, friendships, etc... Naturally, I did not take her advice about any of the things that I mentioned, but those words still haunted me with every new experience to I encountered to which she wanted for me to apply these regulations of life.  Her voice would ring in the back of my head every time I began a new relationship or friendship, and there was nothing I could do about it....yep, you guessed it.  Until I met this guy.

This happened very recently, and it was familiar and unexpected and questionable in many ways.  It happened, and for the first time in my entire life, I am ok with letting the guard down a little bit.  I am actually feeling like I can take it all the way down pretty soon. I couldn't go all out-that would be asking just a little much from a lifetime love cynic and fan of being super single and unattached to a significant other (just to prove a point).  I cannot put my finger on exactly what it is about this guy, what one qualifying characteristic, has me completely floored; this only intrigues me more.  For the first time in a very, very long time, I don't feel like I should be too cautious about getting my heart broken because I feel like this is right, and I feel like it is what is supposed to be happening right now.

I know no one cares at all about my love life; hell, I barely do myself, but I had to get this out somehow.  What better way than here??  Sorry if I wasted your time, but it was worth it.  :)