So, when you are young(er) and things are simple and easy, you think that there is no way that things will ever change and if they do, it won't be drastic enough to impact your life to a degree that everything you know will be turned upside down....
that is the beauty and credulousness of youth.
When you get to be where you think you are a grown up now, mid twenties, you think you have it all figured out. You still don't have the concept of time that hits you like a ton of bricks the closer you creep to the preverbial end of the road or middle of the road. When you are at that stage, you think that nothing will phase you. You live fast, you live hard, you live....or so you think you do.
Then, a sudden shift in priorities sets in once a doctor places a gentle, innocent, and totally dependent little sweetheart in your arms and calls you a mom for the first time in your life. You suddenly realize that everything that you thought you held dear, everything you thought was important, everything that you thought you knew crumbles in value right before your very eyes. You suddenly snap out of the cloud of life and loss of it, that you were living before, seemingly independent and free. You snap out of the coma that was your life and you wake up to see the world from a different lens. You are now a mom. You are now a person who will sacrifice everything and anything to ensure the saftey and well being of this gentle little creature. You are now outside of the norm that you got too comfortable with before. For once in your life, you are thinking of someone else before you think of yourself.....
and it feels so damn good.
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